Pivot

After my crash, I sat on the side of my bed, middle of the night, lights off, bawling my eyes out. Riley was asleep in my bed. I tried to bawl quietly. 

I knew then, that it was time. To step out and away from education as it was. As it is right now. 

I cried for the imminent break-up with education. With the system. With my need to do what my tūpuna have been telling me for years to do. 

A wairua decision and a long held one... For many years. That it was finally time to step aside and let the next teacher come in. 

The main issue with this plan -- is that there aren't many new teachers. And barely any teachers coming in to apply at our kura, in our town. 

I'm worried for my students - the incessant stream of relievers. 

I chose the 22nd Aug which will give me time with the kids before I leave. 

I'm worried about my staff and colleagues I'm leaving behind -- so I'm creating new lessons, plans and resources. 

I'm worried about my whanau who are worried about me. Because I broke the poverty mindset cycle. And I made changes. But now - it's time for me to make a change so I'm happier and living my dream. 

I'm excited that now I can step fully into my dream job, make it actually happen and build my future reality and pivot - HARD. 

I'm excited that now I can connect with my real purpose and engaging with our community to uplift everyone. 

But, I have to start with me. 

I made the decision to resign. It did not come lightly. I will not go back into traditional education... For a time... Maybe ever. I need something more for now. 

And so do our students. 

Our students deserve better - always. 

And so -- I take my leave, bowing out, thankful for all the growth, the lessons and the people I met along the way. 

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