I am nervous, excited and worried.
Nervous because I have my appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow morning.
Nervous because I'll be connecting with someone new and telling them my story.
Nervous because what if I don't get the diagnosis I expect?
Excited because what If I DO get the diagnosis I expect?
Excited because I can see my colleagues again after a somewhat (never long enough!) holiday break.
Excited because I can sit with my team and plan the year out more specifically.
Excited because there are new people joining my team!
Worried about not completing tasks I'd aimed to do during the holiday break.
Realistically - everything will work out as it should do tomorrow. I don't need to be worried.
I spent the holiday break learning more about myself, grounding myself, removing and shifting trauma and restrictive memories/blocks from my psyche, building more confidence and self-love.
Appreciating my journey, grateful to my younger self for being so resilient, thankful to those people who have been guiding me throughout my life and who continue to do so.
Grateful that I have such incredible friends and whanau that support me - no matter what.
Excited.... Because I think I'm right in my diagnosis....
But also -- what will it change?
I will know a deeper layer to myself, give validation to my whanau who have the same symptoms and help lay a stronger pathway for myself to get more concrete (pun intended) coping strategies and techniques.
Here's to 2021... Because anything has to be better than last year 🙌🏽💛
Here's to 2021 -- the year I make my own dreams come true.
Here's to 2021 -- where we see success, happiness and determination thrive in our community.
Here's to 2021 -- positivity, acceptance and self-love 💛🙌🏽
